Can I talk to you for a minute?
I mean really talk to you.
And for once just listen.
Listen to the words as they flow from my lips.
Hold them to the highest priority like an alter to the ancestors.
May they bless our bond after this moment.
A moment that is a long time coming.
There is so much I have wanted to say to you.
I’m sorry life has not always been kind to your feelings.
I’m sorry it made you shut off your love from the world.
As a child I needed that.
I needed it badly, but you could not give it.
At least, not in the way that I needed.
For a while I was angry.
I wondered if I was just unlovable. Now that I know it wasn’t my fault, I forgive you.
I forgive him too.
The man that hurt you.
My father.
You both knew no better,
And in order to heal
I have to let go.
Let go of the doubt and self destruction.
Now I am happy.
Happy that I can say the things and feel the things I never felt.
My children are happy as well.
They deserve that.
Happiness.
Love.
As my mother, you do too.
But you continue to reject it.
That’s okay.
If no one ever tells you or you continue to
Harden your shell.
Just know that how I felt back then
Is how I feel now.
I love you….
