When The Mask Comes Off

Photo Obtained from Pinterest. Artist is : Laurie Cooper

The façade has ended

The person you created is gone

The one I’m truly intended

To be has arrived

I gave you all of me

And you still couldn’t see

The damage done over time

Digging deep inside

I cried out for help

I begged you to stop

Let me be

And set me free

But like a bird you caged me

Determined not to let me sing

The trauma you inflicted

Has been evicted

I have found my voice

Now you must listen

As I unburden my truth

When the mask comes off

Simplicity

Riding down the boulevard

I reach over and hold your hand

It’s early,

So early it’s like we’re the only ones on the road

We take it all in

Crazy by India.Arie comes through the speakers

The soulful notes touches us deep within

No words are needed

Everything in this moment speaks for itself

The sky resembles a portrait come to life

With colors of red, pinks, and yellow

The sun slowly rises

Casting a light of simplicity

Of love everlasting

How Much I Love You

I want to tell the world how much I love you

I want them to know that from the moment I met you, I found the manifestation of love.

I want them to know that the rich color of your skin reminds me of the most premium cocoa

I want them to know that when you smile, that dimple on you left side of your cheek winks at me in a sexy way

I want them to know that just the touch of your hand makes me quiver down to the depths of my soul

So much so that when you hold me I wish you would never let go

I want them to know….

I need them to know….

To know that I can’t really describe how much I love you

There aren’t enough words to give an accurate description

I find myself looking at all I have written and it always seems like it is never enough

And then I fear that when the time comes like tonight, when I want to tell the world how much I love you

I’ll get stuck

Stuck to the point that the moment will be gone before I can even utter a single world

So right here, in this moment

As the spotlight is on us

I’ll look you in your eyes and simply say

I love you

Physical Touch

Most people associate physical touch as sexual.

It doesn’t have to be,

There’s levels to it.

Some levels we don’t experience until we find the right one.

My spirit knew I was ready when he entered my life.

His introduction was everything I needed. 

You should’ve seen how he’d stare into my eyes before tapping me on my right cheek producing a smile.

The way we’d walk down the street and he’d casually bump into me to throw me off balance.

In the midst of a deep conversation or for no reason at all,

He would hold my hand and a calmness would come over me.

My heart melted into a pool of bliss each time he’d wrap me in his arms,

And just hold me for hours saying nothing. 

No words were needed,

The comfort of being secure in his arms was enough.

In my moments with him, I received what I needed from physical touch.

You Were My Downfall

As I lie here in the middle of the street,

My thoughts drift to you

I wonder what you’re doing, if you’re happy, and if 

you found someone to replace me

Replace me…..

That’s what you’ll be doing

Replacing me for someone to make new memories with

You’ll go on to live happily ever after,

But I won’t

For me, there is no one else

There is no more life

Soon a car will come up the street going too fast

The driver will be just leaving the bar and shouldn’t be behind the wheel

They won’t see me changing my mind and trying to get up

By then it will have been too late

And as I lie there in my final moments, my thoughts drift to you again

I pray that when you see this on the news you will finally think of me

I pray that you’ll be filled with visions of my face, my smile, and my smell

I pray that you have someone to comfort you through it all

And most importantly, I pray that you will know

You were my downfall

Love Never Lost

I remember the time I thought I lost you

I woke up early for some reason and couldn’t feel you

My world was so off balance I needed you to steady it

I journeyed up to the stars for you,

But got caught up trying to wish on a shooting star as the rest danced around Mother Moon as she waited to welcome Father Sun

I traveled to the still waters and watched,

As Yemoja washed ashore all of her offerings, but you were not one.

I hoped to see you on a streak of lightning,

That Shango rode into battle with thunder booming all around him

Then I chased the storm,

As Oya tore through the city in a rage.

I wonder if anyone saw me over there shouting your name,

As she whipped down the street laughing at her destruction.

I wonder if they saw me duck,

When everything on the street followed behind her not caring where it landed.

As the wind pushed me over and I awaited the embrace of the ground.

It was at this moment of her destruction that I found myself in your arms,

Your warm arms were the ground replacement.

Your beating heart was the warriors cry of protection.

You had been with me all along

Your presence stronger when I needed you most

You were the shooting the star that was too fast to wish on.

You were the force behind the water Yemoja used to give her offerings

You were the thunder that announced the lightning for Shango

And as Oya barreled through unapologetically,

You are my shelter from the storm set to destroy all.

Now I am your comfort after a hard day’s work that will continue again tomorrow.

The Day You Left

Have you ever been paralyzed with so much pain that you thought you were dying?

Your heart constricts and blood flow decreases until you are no longer breathing

That’s how I felt when you left

Life was no longer worth living

No longer would I see the depth of the world in your eyes

No longer would my anxiety be at ease from seeing that dimple in your smile

My security blanket, also known as your arms wrapped around me was no longer available

And now I must learn to navigate this thing called life the same way I made my entrance into the world…..alone.

In Your Presence

It’s been 15 years since I stood in your presence, before that I don’t remember.

The memory of you can’t even be described as fleeting, in reality it’s non-existent.

I used to wonder why out of all of us I was left alone without any memories of you, but then I realize that it was probably a blessing.

None of the others have many memories of you and to be honest the ones they have aren’t that great.

I guess the universe did well saving me from years of heartbreak, years of wondering why I wasn’t good enough,and the vision of you walking out the door I will ever know.

All of that I have been sparred from ever having to feel.

It would’ve been nice to have something though. I guess that’s why I reached out for some type of connection.

Out of that strained connection, I got your voice and your memories of the past.

Some of those good and some of those bad, but still there is your voice going back down memory lane for the few minutes you’re willing to stay on the phone.

And once the call is disconnected, I go one with my life as I have always done.

Wondering if it’ll be another 15 years before I’m in your presence again or if that last time was the final.

Last Night We Danced

Last night we danced and it was magical.

You walked in the room and there was no one else but us.

Nothing extravagant, just an ordinary room where you and I were the only two people in the world.

It started slow with us looking into each other’s eyes and then transitioned into a cozy two step as we teased each other with rhythm.

The music changed and we waltz from one corner to the next before moving into a tango.

That tango meant more than we both could ever imagine.

It was during that moment our feelings were on display.

Eyes connecting, body’s moving, and hearts intertwining to the language of love.

Last night we danced and it was magical.